At Last ... The Truth Finally Revealed ...

Tonight ... I had an appointment with a friend ... We agreed to meet at PS. It was raining so hard, so afraid I couldn't make it ....(but I know .. once I've made up my mind, nothing can stop it ... but God ...)tp akhirnya reda .... duh syusye bener nyari taxi ... secara aq adl. org yg punctual, ga suka telat for an appointment ...
Anyway, sampe PS jam 7.40 n he arrived at 8.20 ... Lalu kita lsg makan di foodcourt coz he's starving to death ...

Lalu dia akhirnya cerita ... and the truth finally revealed ...

Dia masuk BJ dlm kondisi sdh memiliki pasangan. Rencananya adl. nanti mereka akan pura2 ketemu di BJ lalu jadian. Well planned ... but God had a better plan ... they broke up ... everything ruined, unexpectedly ...

So here we are, sitting face to face, he confessed everything...apologized for what he's done ... said that he'd unsub if I wanted him to ...

Gosh .. I really don't know what to say ...

First of all.. I hate being cheated, in each n every other way ... I've told him that from the very first time ...
But now ... looking at him, brokenhearted ... so sad about his relationship, full of regrets .... I really don't have the heart to get angry... I can see that he's been punished , burdened by his guilty feelings ( hope I'm not mistaken ) ... I can punish him no more...
Who am I after all ??? Siapakah aq.... begitu sempurnanyakah shg aq merasa berada di posisi yg lebih tinggi dr dia ... dr siapapun ... yg memberikan aq hak utk menghukum org lain ... men-judge org lain ??? Masih ada Hakim Agung yg paling berhak , absolutely not me...
I'm only human, full of mistakes .. so how could I not forgive someone else's mistakes, if he'd apologized ???

Then I told him ... his apology has balanced his mistake ... It's true that I hate what he's done to me, but still he's gentle enough to confess (although I'm not sure if everything runs well, not ruin instead ... will he still tell me the truth n apologize ? But what the hack ... aq ga mau mengotori pikiranq dgn berbagai praduga ...)... and I appreciate him for that ... so ... apology accepted, my friend ...

Then we talked about other things... his relationship, his preparation for going abroad ... many things ... And he drove me home ...
Sampe rumah kok aq msh keingetan terus yaa ... his face, his voice n body language, his sadness n regrets ... and I just couldn't stand it, knowing that my friend, someone I really care about ... in such condition ... So I requested a song for him at cosmo, just to let him know ... that whatever happens, whatever it takes... he's still got a friend in me ...


You've Got A Friend
by: Carole King

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night


Reff:
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door

::back to Reff::

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

luv u,
IK