BJers' Halal Bihalal .... 0 comments

Akhirnya .... tgl 27 Oktober BJers ngadain halal bihalal di Resto Marinara ....

Penuh perjuangan juga tu ... ada yg mula2 setuju tp in the end bilang dia males krn alergi seafood ( tapi aq curiga dia males krn liat harganya Rp. 65000,- walopun itu sebenernya wajar utk resto all u can eat ) ..... dan akhirnya end up dgn bener2 ga muncul trus sms ngasi berbagai alasan :(

Ada juga yg ragu krn takut asam urat n kolesterolnya naik .... trus aq cek ternyata ada menu lain other than seafood ..... lalu dia akhirnya showed up .... dan bahkan semangat bgt makan ( Miftah n even Ira yg anak baru ampe ga tahan utk ga ngomentarin ) ..... kepiting yg katanya pantangan pun habis disikat tuh, hihiihihihi.....

Trus ada yg minta dimajuin jd jam 12 secara diana kudu balik ngantor ..... padahal aq mau zuhur dulu di rumah .... akhirnya minta Wisnu utk stand by dulu jam 12 disana .... tapi toh ternyata anak2 pada datang sekitar jam 2an juga ....

Ada yg ampe telpon aq dgn gaya still yakin mau dtg ... jam 11lewat sms blg baru bangun tp segera meluncur .... dan ampe kami pulang gada kabar tuuu .... so rude ...

Ada yg bilang mau dtg karena kangen udah lama ga ngumpul2 ... tp teteup ga muncul, as always .... di telpon kok hp na matek .... ya sut ... I have my own limit .... I won't give a damn anymore .... kalo mau dtg ya welcome .... ga ma juga gapapa ..... kayak org penting bgt ampe diharapkan gitu .... Kalo dia ga dtg kan berarti dia ga nganggap acara ini penting ... kalo gitu caranya ya udah .... I'll play ur game, my friend ....

But after all ..... I don't care at all .... aq 1000x lebih menghargai mereka yg udah ngeluangin wkt utk dtg .... terutama yg kayak Holily yg nyempetin dtg walopun cuma bentar ...

So jam 12.30 Wisnu sms aq, dia dah di marinara tp blm ada yg dtg .... Aq sampe sana jam 13.05 udah ada Wisnu, Vivi n Holily .... ga berapa lama dtg Tatiek ... truz Aga, Ira, Sugi, Liza, Iwet, Nico, Miftah, Tri, Rulli, Fuad, Siwiek, Toetoet, Maikel, Kiki, Riris, Nanang .....
We talked, laughed all the time .... so much fun .... dan foto2 pastinya ga lupa ....
Truz jam 16.35 kami bubar .... beberapa lsg pulang karena ada keperluan .... tapi ada yg mau nonton ( including me ) .... sesudah di cek kok filmnya gada yg bagus ..... ga jadi ... Akhirnya pada pulang ... tapi Aq, Siwiek n Toetoet teteup ngider dulu .... n finally we end up di Starbucks ... biasalah ... aq dgn menu favorit ... blended frapuccino ..... Jam 9 malam baru plg .... sebenernya masih pengen lbh lama lagi ... tapi Siwiek dah resah dgn angkutannya ..... ya udah, to be continued deh .....

Fiuhhh ... akhirna .... mudah2an dgn halal bihalal ini kita bisa mengubur semua yg jelek .... dan membuka lembaran baru yg lebih baik .... dalam segala hal ... Amin ...

A new day has come .....

IK

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To Love or Be Loved .....

Last night .... well it was midnight actually .... wkt aq lg browsing, WS sms, blg : " Barusan buka FS yaaa..... " Kaget jg, g nyangka jam segitu msh ada yg 'idup', hihihihihi .....
Lalu kami ngobrol ... ( thanks to Esia, bisa ngobrol ampe jontor, hihiihiihi... ) biasalah , chit chat ... lalu aq nanya ttg hub dia dgn KW1 ... bukan apa2 .... sbg sahabat aq ikut senang kalo dia bahagia n akhirnya menemukan tambatan hatinya ....
Mula2 WS ga mau cerita n nyuruh aq nanya sendiri to her .... tp aq males, secara aq lebih deket ma co drpd ma ce ( ya ealaahhh ... hukum tarik menarik jehh , hihihhi )

Lalu akhirnya dia cerita ... klo ma KW1 dia udah gada apa2 ..... dia blg cape digantung terus gada kejelasan .... yg ada malah sakit hati ( hellooooo .... what's goin' on here ??? ) ...
Sedangkan ada gadis lain yg sayang bgt ama dia dari dulu, sampai sekarang, mutiara yg hilang dr kehidupannya dulu ( this was exactly what he said .... so sweet ... ) dan sekarang kembali lg ( kok jd kayak lagunya Yuni Shara yaaa..).... dan dia ga mau kehilangan lagi .... jd WS memutuskan utk better bersama this pearl ..... Krn dia begitu mencintai WS ... so tdk akan sulit bagi WS utk mencintai dia juga ... drpd mencintai org lain yg blm tentu mencintai dia ....
WS sound so happy, dia berulangkali cerita bout her .... bahwa dlm pertemuan pertama mrk kembali itu dah ngomong ttg merit segala .... mrk udah sama2 cape, n setuju utk ngelupain smua ce n co ga jelas yg ada dlm kehidupan masing2 n move on together ..... Alhamdulillah, I'm really happy for U .....

Actually WS really loves KW1 ..... dia bukan tipe co yg suka flirting .... jg tdk gampang jatuh cinta ... but once he fell ... it would be deep .... Dgn KW1 dia sayang bgt .. tp ya itu, krn gada kepastian .... akhirnya he gave up ..... n kembali ke that pearl ...

Lalu aq nanya ... klo gitu apa yg menghalangi hub kamu dulu sama dia ??
Kata WS ... wkt itu kondisi mrk masing2 dah ada pacar ...
Ooo ... OK then.....

Tp yg menyentuh aq disini adalah .... WS berkali2 blg klo that pearl loves him so much, dr dulu sampai sekarang .... n it won't be hard for him to love her back ... For him it's better to be loved ... than to love, coz it hurt so much .... loving someone who doesn't even seem to care ....

God ... ini benar2 membuat aq berpikir ... could he be right ??? Which one is better, To Love or Be Loved ...???

Krn selama ini aq percaya pada yg namanya Mutual Relationship ( ga tau, bener2 ada istilah ini ato aq aja yg made it up ) ..... semuanya harus dari kedua belah pihak ... ga bisa hanya dari satu pihak aja .... So ... kalo ada satu pihak yg mencintai dgn begitu dalamnya ... sementara pihak lainnya ga ( well at least tdk dlm kadar yg sama besar ) .... is it good .... dan yg terpenting adalah ... is it FAIR ... ????

Can someone please answer this ????

But come to think of it .... I myself don't fall in love easily ..... aq bukan tipe yg suka flirting ... aq ga gampang tergoda liat fisik ato segala hal duniawi .... krn smua itu bisa hilang, baik dlm sekejap ato seiring dgn berjalannya waktu ....
Well itu bisa dibaca rincinya di another posting ( tp msh dalam btk draft so just be patient yaa ...)

Dan honestly .... kalo ada org yg really loves me n soo nice to me ... I might fall ....n love him back ... I wouldn't deny that .... coz it happened ...
So .... apakah berarti WS benar ??

Aq jd inget ama PH .... He loves me so much .... dari jaman kami kuliah .... sampai sekarang ... tadinya aq ga nyadar ( krn dulu aq cuek bgt ) .... lalu pd saat aq tau ( krn dia akhirnya ngomong sendiri ) ternyata dia sdh dlm kondisi engage ... then he got married ... but he still loves me ... then he got separated ( ada yg blg itu krn he still couldn't forget me, but it wasn't my fault coz I'm totally out of his life when he got married then separated )... n he still loves me ( duh jgn ribet bacanya yakz ... I'm writing it down as a novel.... maybe it would be published someday, hihihihihi ...... )
That's when I realized how much he loves me .... n seiring dgn berjalannya waktu ... I love him back ( yeah ... yeah ... just laugh ... )....
Mau tau kelanjutannya ??? I'm not with him .... Tanya kenapa ??? Read it on my upcoming novel ( pede abieezzzz, hihihihihihihii ........)

But the bottom line is .... it happened to me ( although no happy ending, hikss hikksss ... ) someone loves me .. so much .. and it makes me love him back .. that much .... Well in this case I think it's good n fair enough .... don't U think ???

So .. to conclude this .... maybe it's good to be together with someone who loves U so much .... As Long As ... U have commitment to love him back ... and U're willing to do it with all Ur heart ....

God, please send me someone who loves me that much again ... and I swear to love him with all my heart n soul .....

IK

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Man of My Dream .... 0 comments

Ini masih lanjutan waktu ketemuan ama QQ ....

On our way home we talked, laughed n made fun of each other ... QQ masih ngeledekin ttg that Terry Stahl dlm The Return ... betapa aq terpesona ama dia ... abis keren gitu ... dah stw tp bodina msh okeh , cool, berantemna keren n sayang banget ma ce nya .... We laughed ...

Truz ga tau kenapa lalu QQ nanya, sebenernya tipe aq yg seperti apa ...??
Aq bilang *serius mode on* kalo "in the end fisik itu ga penting ..."
QQ kayaknya heran n nanya lagi, "kalo gitu yg penting apa ...??"
Aq blg : "yg penting hati ...."
QQ blg : "yeah ... well ... aq udah ga punya hati ..."
Aq jawab : "yaa ... itu masalah kamu .... tapi buat aq yg penting hati .... dia harus baik dan setia sama aq ...."

Then we talked 'bout other things ....

But that little conversation really intriguing me ...

Man of My Dream .... hmmmm ...
Mungkin orang akan nganggap aq aneh .... tapi apa yg aq blg ke QQ itu betul ... fisik tdk pernah jadi syarat utama buat aq ..... krn aq tau betul ... bahwa yg berkilau itu blm tentyu emas ....
Aq ga nyari lelaki yg cakep, ganteng, keren, kaya ( well at least dia punya penghasilan n mau berusaha ... see, I'm not hypocrite ) .... karena itu semua bisa hilang ...

Cakep, ganteng dan keren itu bisa hilang seiring dgn waktu ... akan timbul kerut2, tubuh akan melar dan tidak setegap dulu .... perut six packs berubah jd one pack ... lagian org tdk selalu berada dlm kondisi terbaiknya kan ... pada saat bete , bangun tidur atau bahkan sakit ... penampilan udah ga diperhatikan .... trus kalo pada saat itu dia keliatan jelek bgt .... apakah aq lalu akan meninggalkan dia ???
Well I think that's shallow ...

Aq juga ga selalu dlm kondisi terbaikku ... apalagi katanya wanita lbh cepat tua drpd laki2 ... Aq ga mungkin bedakan terus 24jam ... dress up terus ...
Aq ga mau org suka pada tampak luarku .... pada saat aq sakit, pucat, males dandan ... belum mandi ... which means I'm not in my best performance ... then he'll stop loving me, gitu ??? Pada saat mulai timbul kerut2 penuaan di sudut mataku ... what will he do then ??? Leave me ???

Begitu jg dgn materi .... semua cuma titipan kok ... berapapun yg kamu punya sekarang , kalo Tuhan menginginkan Dia dapat mengambilnya in an instance ... nothing left ... would that mean that I'll leave him when he broke ???

Tapi hati yg baik, penyayang dan setia ... mudah2an bisa bertahan selamanya, asal dijaga dgn baik ....
Karena aq paling ga suka berantem, ga suka dgr org marah2, bahkan dgr org ngomong dgn nada tinggi aja kepalaku udah pusing ... Aq cuma pengen hidup tenang disamping my man ... dan aq tau he'll be there for me whatever happens ... whatever it takes ... well maybe not physically always ( if he's so busy with whatever he's doing ).... but at least by heart ...

Aq pengen org yg bisa menenangkan pd saat aq crowded, memberi masukan pd saat aq bingung, mendengarkan pd saat aq berbicara, memelukku pd saat aq sedih, tempat aq menyandarkan hati n seluruh hidupku, tempat aq pulang pd saat aq lelah menghadapi dunia ini ... center of my universe ...

Dan tentu saja vice versa ... aq ingin dia juga menganggap aq pusat jagad raya nya ... tempat dia pulang ... krn aq percaya pada yg namanya Mutual Relationship , semuanya hrs dr kedua belah pihak, ga bs hanya dr satu pihak aja ....

Aq pengen org yg mengerti aq, luar dalam ... yg bahkan aq ga perlu bicara pun dia sudah tau apa yg ingin aq katakan ... just by looking in my eyes .... coz there's kind of connection that bonds our hearts ...

I used to have someone .... exactly what I've been looking for ... there's connection, the 'click' thing ... somehow I can feel him the way he always feel me ... But when I finally realized that it was him that I've been loking for, it's too late for me ...

Now that I've learned my lesson ... God please send me my man ... and I won't be that stupid again ...
He doesn't have to be perfect ... coz I ain't perfect either .... but one thing I know for sure ... we perfect each other when we're together .... So help me God ...

IK

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The Way 0 comments

by Clay Aiken

There's somethin' 'bout the way
You look tonight
There's somethin' bout the way that
I can't take my eyes off you

There's somethin' 'bout the way
Your lips invite
Maybe it's the way that
I get nervous when you're around

And I want you to be mine
And if you need a reason why

It's in the way that
You move me
And the way that
You tease me
The way that
I want you tonight

It's in the way that
You hold me
And the way that
You know me
And when I can't find
The right words to say
You feel it in the way
Oh, feel it in the way

Somethin' 'bout how you stay on my mind
There's somethin' 'bout the way that
I whisper your name when I'm asleep, oh, girl
Maybe it's the look
You get in your eyes
Oh, baby, it's the way that
It makes me feel to see you smile
And the reasons they may change
But what I'm feelin' stays the same

In the way that
You move me
And the way that
You tease me
The way that
I want you tonight (tonight)

It's in the way that
You hold me
And the way that
You know me
And when I can't find
The right words to say
You feel it in the way
Oh, feel it in the way

I can't put my fingers on
Just what it is that makes me
Love you, you, baby
So don't ask me to describe
I get all choked up inside
Just thinkin' 'bout the way

It's in the way that (Oh)
You move me
And the way that
You tease me
The way that I want you tonight (tonight)

Oh (It's in the way that)
You hold me (the way you hold me, yeah)
And the way that
You know me (the way you know me)
When I can find the right words to say (Feel it in
the)
It's in the way that
You move me
And the way that
You tease me (feelin')
The way-ay-ay-ay-ay ~ (feel it in the way)

There's somethin' 'bout the way you look tonight
There's nothin' more to say than
I feel it in the way


IK

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How Friendship Break ??? 0 comments

1. Both friends will think the other is busy

2. And will not contact, thinking it may be disturbing

... As time passes by ...

3. Both will think to let the other contact first

4. After that each will think Why should I contact first ??

5. Here's where your love will be converted to hate

6. Finally without contact the memory becomes weak

7. And they forget each other

... I don't want to be one of this kind ...

... So here I am sending this to you ...

... To say ...

... I am fine here ...

... Please keep in touch with me ...


IK
still luv u

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