To Love or Be Loved .....

Last night .... well it was midnight actually .... wkt aq lg browsing, WS sms, blg : " Barusan buka FS yaaa..... " Kaget jg, g nyangka jam segitu msh ada yg 'idup', hihihihihi .....
Lalu kami ngobrol ... ( thanks to Esia, bisa ngobrol ampe jontor, hihiihiihi... ) biasalah , chit chat ... lalu aq nanya ttg hub dia dgn KW1 ... bukan apa2 .... sbg sahabat aq ikut senang kalo dia bahagia n akhirnya menemukan tambatan hatinya ....
Mula2 WS ga mau cerita n nyuruh aq nanya sendiri to her .... tp aq males, secara aq lebih deket ma co drpd ma ce ( ya ealaahhh ... hukum tarik menarik jehh , hihihhi )

Lalu akhirnya dia cerita ... klo ma KW1 dia udah gada apa2 ..... dia blg cape digantung terus gada kejelasan .... yg ada malah sakit hati ( hellooooo .... what's goin' on here ??? ) ...
Sedangkan ada gadis lain yg sayang bgt ama dia dari dulu, sampai sekarang, mutiara yg hilang dr kehidupannya dulu ( this was exactly what he said .... so sweet ... ) dan sekarang kembali lg ( kok jd kayak lagunya Yuni Shara yaaa..).... dan dia ga mau kehilangan lagi .... jd WS memutuskan utk better bersama this pearl ..... Krn dia begitu mencintai WS ... so tdk akan sulit bagi WS utk mencintai dia juga ... drpd mencintai org lain yg blm tentu mencintai dia ....
WS sound so happy, dia berulangkali cerita bout her .... bahwa dlm pertemuan pertama mrk kembali itu dah ngomong ttg merit segala .... mrk udah sama2 cape, n setuju utk ngelupain smua ce n co ga jelas yg ada dlm kehidupan masing2 n move on together ..... Alhamdulillah, I'm really happy for U .....

Actually WS really loves KW1 ..... dia bukan tipe co yg suka flirting .... jg tdk gampang jatuh cinta ... but once he fell ... it would be deep .... Dgn KW1 dia sayang bgt .. tp ya itu, krn gada kepastian .... akhirnya he gave up ..... n kembali ke that pearl ...

Lalu aq nanya ... klo gitu apa yg menghalangi hub kamu dulu sama dia ??
Kata WS ... wkt itu kondisi mrk masing2 dah ada pacar ...
Ooo ... OK then.....

Tp yg menyentuh aq disini adalah .... WS berkali2 blg klo that pearl loves him so much, dr dulu sampai sekarang .... n it won't be hard for him to love her back ... For him it's better to be loved ... than to love, coz it hurt so much .... loving someone who doesn't even seem to care ....

God ... ini benar2 membuat aq berpikir ... could he be right ??? Which one is better, To Love or Be Loved ...???

Krn selama ini aq percaya pada yg namanya Mutual Relationship ( ga tau, bener2 ada istilah ini ato aq aja yg made it up ) ..... semuanya harus dari kedua belah pihak ... ga bisa hanya dari satu pihak aja .... So ... kalo ada satu pihak yg mencintai dgn begitu dalamnya ... sementara pihak lainnya ga ( well at least tdk dlm kadar yg sama besar ) .... is it good .... dan yg terpenting adalah ... is it FAIR ... ????

Can someone please answer this ????

But come to think of it .... I myself don't fall in love easily ..... aq bukan tipe yg suka flirting ... aq ga gampang tergoda liat fisik ato segala hal duniawi .... krn smua itu bisa hilang, baik dlm sekejap ato seiring dgn berjalannya waktu ....
Well itu bisa dibaca rincinya di another posting ( tp msh dalam btk draft so just be patient yaa ...)

Dan honestly .... kalo ada org yg really loves me n soo nice to me ... I might fall ....n love him back ... I wouldn't deny that .... coz it happened ...
So .... apakah berarti WS benar ??

Aq jd inget ama PH .... He loves me so much .... dari jaman kami kuliah .... sampai sekarang ... tadinya aq ga nyadar ( krn dulu aq cuek bgt ) .... lalu pd saat aq tau ( krn dia akhirnya ngomong sendiri ) ternyata dia sdh dlm kondisi engage ... then he got married ... but he still loves me ... then he got separated ( ada yg blg itu krn he still couldn't forget me, but it wasn't my fault coz I'm totally out of his life when he got married then separated )... n he still loves me ( duh jgn ribet bacanya yakz ... I'm writing it down as a novel.... maybe it would be published someday, hihihihihi ...... )
That's when I realized how much he loves me .... n seiring dgn berjalannya waktu ... I love him back ( yeah ... yeah ... just laugh ... )....
Mau tau kelanjutannya ??? I'm not with him .... Tanya kenapa ??? Read it on my upcoming novel ( pede abieezzzz, hihihihihihihii ........)

But the bottom line is .... it happened to me ( although no happy ending, hikss hikksss ... ) someone loves me .. so much .. and it makes me love him back .. that much .... Well in this case I think it's good n fair enough .... don't U think ???

So .. to conclude this .... maybe it's good to be together with someone who loves U so much .... As Long As ... U have commitment to love him back ... and U're willing to do it with all Ur heart ....

God, please send me someone who loves me that much again ... and I swear to love him with all my heart n soul .....

IK